I really just need to get this off of my chest and onto tumblr. This week has been the shittiest week of my entire life, man. Not only this week but this year. Like, 2012 has rocked man, some sick albums have dropped and second semester was the bomb but ever since school started back everything has just sucked to the max. Like life is just at it’s lowest for me, it’s never been this low. I can’t even listen to new music anymore cause there’s just nothing to look forward to anymore. Sure, it’s just a phase and I’ll get through it but I really am just too tired and don’t give a crap to try to get through it. I just wanna run away and start a whole new life with new people, except Tim I want Tim to come with me. I used to be scared of moving, like everyone was gonna forget me and I’d miss them every second but now I just want nobody to pay attention to me. I want to be that kid that just makes it through high school without being in things and really talking to people, I just want to graduate and leave but I’ve already established myself so much that if I became a recluse it’d make me look 50xs more like some depressing insane kid. So now I just gotta put through all of this crap and people when I don’t wanna see or here any of it. And I wouldn’t miss anyone now cause one day we’re gonna leave whether it’s death or just moving on, it’s gonna happen and I’d rather it happen right now so I can meet new people and live actually happy instead of just acting happy every second cause I’m not. The friends I used to have don’t talk to me anymore and the friends I thought I had now hate me. My best friend is now my worst enemy and he’s best friends with my worst enemy just because of some stupid shit that should’ve stayed in the past and never have been brought up. like really it’s just me versus the world right now and the world is stompin on me, dude. I just want something or someone to come through and change things. I want Autumn back, I wanna drop band and make music on my own, and I wanna leave this town and the people in it.
tl;dr version: Everyone hates me and i’m tired of not returning the favor so go fuck yourselves and give me a new life.
- Letting Go
His shirt was off, per usual. His chest glistened with sweat, evidence of a good 20-minutes-worth of being truly hardcore. He reeked of punk rock and repressed anger. He stared at me with the intensity of 1000 grindcore LPs being played — at the same time. He spoke.
“I just went hard in the pit. Now I’m going to go hard in you.”
- 50 shades of hate.
the kid who volunteers to read and can’t pronounce 90% of the words.
Ain’t that about a bitch.